好想逃跑
逃到与世隔绝的地方
没有拥挤的人潮
没有高楼 没有噪音
没有莫名其妙的规条
好想斯嚎
站在山顶上疯狂嚎叫
别管他妈的警告
尽情发泄 尽情咆哮
所有烦恼通通去除掉
好想飞飙
时速两百五一路狂飙
感受那惊悚快感
只踩油门 不看速表
勇闯直前的达到目标
人生就是那么疯狂
既害怕又享受刺激
既胆怯又想去尝试
没有什么事难以办到
有心有力才是最重要
常说人生短短几十年
你我会有多少个十年？
过去 现在 未来 同时在跑
太多的烦恼会让人快臭老
去除烦恼 尽情享受 活出自我 这才是王道!
-著-
黄瑞铭
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Trash in my big head
Well, that was just my belief few years ago.
In times, I did it bit by bit, one by one.
In the end, I've almost done it all.
Still, I'm doing some of it for almost everyday.
How did I get that adventurous?
How did I take myself to this extent?
Was it because of I wanna be strong?
Was it my courage?
Or was it my 'kia su & kia si' nature? (Gotta be this!)
Normally I'm just a nerd who always doing silly shits and showing the dumb smile.
Holding back what I'm about to do, to say.
In times, I've changed, bit by bit, day by day.
I chose to say what I wanted to say.
Cos' I know it feels suck to get myself withheld with the shits!
How did I get so straight-forward?
How do I move on to this extent?
Had I offended some people by being straight-forward?
Did I feel sorry if I'd offended someone?
Wait a minute, ain't I just tell the fact??
Words that spoken, can never ever be taken back.
If you ask me have I ever felt sorry? Hmm.. Not likely..
All things said and all things done.
Look at me, I'm standing still, moving on.
Like I give a damn to those past?
No! Ain't no! Hell no! There's nothing to be regretted.
And I don't practice 'regret' in my entire fucking life for god's sake!
Well, from my p.o.v., swearing is kinda fun and 'syiok'!
Only provided using in the right time, at the right place and to the right persons!!
Isn't it?? :p
Written by,
Ryan Ng
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
求..不得..
看不见夕阳的那几天
乌云密布得令人快窒息..
如果此时有个人在身边
想必不会感到那么的茫然.
一个人坐在星巴克..
一本书, 一杯摩咔, 一直不变
其实一点都不孤单 很自然..
听着歌, 抽着烟, 又这样过了好几天..
一声叹气能够释放多少无奈?
一根香烟能够抽出多少感慨?
我想寻找的人何时才会出现?
人总是会有所求, 也因欲求..不得..
我也没那么的执著.. 唯知要向前走
不管多少年 我还是得把梦想去实现
-著-
黄瑞铭
乌云密布得令人快窒息..
如果此时有个人在身边
想必不会感到那么的茫然.
一个人坐在星巴克..
一本书, 一杯摩咔, 一直不变
其实一点都不孤单 很自然..
听着歌, 抽着烟, 又这样过了好几天..
一声叹气能够释放多少无奈?
一根香烟能够抽出多少感慨?
我想寻找的人何时才会出现?
人总是会有所求, 也因欲求..不得..
我也没那么的执著.. 唯知要向前走
不管多少年 我还是得把梦想去实现
-著-
黄瑞铭
Monday, March 1, 2010
This is something that I wanted to tell to a person a week ago..
Don't blame others, when something went wrong.
You had made the choice, and you should be aware of the consequences that lying within.
You presumed that it would be fine.
But when things went wrong, you're getting sad & mad.
Do you think, it's because of you taking it for granted?
You made the choice, you took things for granted with your murky assumptions, blinding and telling yourself that it would be fine.
When things went wrong, you started feeling defeated and frustrated.
You blamed everything and everyone else that you could blame off.
But in fact, no one is neither right nor wrong.
Think deeply, to the core of the matter.
Who was the one presumed the consequences?
Who was the one didn't take the worst scenario into the account?
Who's the one always taking almost everything else for granted?!
You, the one who had made the choice, the decision.
You are the one should be blamed off when things around you went wrong.
It's your problems, not others.
Cos' the only problem you have is that you think that you're always right.
For your sake, you are so damn wrong..
Do you know you are just a fool?
Do you realize that nobody really takes care of you?
Do you know that even the closed one, couldn't even stand your awfully disgusting attitudes?
Do you know that??
Like always, I could tell, you don't!
For god's sake, this is something that I don't have to get myself involved.
For my own sake, I don't want to get myself involved too.
Yes. I'm furious. I'm kinda annoyed. I'm somehow disappointed.
But this is how a person who REALLY takes care on you will feel about!!
Still, I don't want to get myself involved in all these shits, not even a bit.
You had made the choice, and you should be aware of the consequences that lying within.
You presumed that it would be fine.
But when things went wrong, you're getting sad & mad.
Do you think, it's because of you taking it for granted?
You made the choice, you took things for granted with your murky assumptions, blinding and telling yourself that it would be fine.
When things went wrong, you started feeling defeated and frustrated.
You blamed everything and everyone else that you could blame off.
But in fact, no one is neither right nor wrong.
Think deeply, to the core of the matter.
Who was the one presumed the consequences?
Who was the one didn't take the worst scenario into the account?
Who's the one always taking almost everything else for granted?!
You, the one who had made the choice, the decision.
You are the one should be blamed off when things around you went wrong.
It's your problems, not others.
Cos' the only problem you have is that you think that you're always right.
For your sake, you are so damn wrong..
Do you know you are just a fool?
Do you realize that nobody really takes care of you?
Do you know that even the closed one, couldn't even stand your awfully disgusting attitudes?
Do you know that??
Like always, I could tell, you don't!
For god's sake, this is something that I don't have to get myself involved.
For my own sake, I don't want to get myself involved too.
Yes. I'm furious. I'm kinda annoyed. I'm somehow disappointed.
But this is how a person who REALLY takes care on you will feel about!!
Still, I don't want to get myself involved in all these shits, not even a bit.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Trapped
I've been listening to Rosie's Lullaby by Norah Jones for all day. The soothing musics are just making me wondering.. There are so many words I want to say, but I couldn't really have someone right beside me to listen to what I want to say..
When people told me that I shouldn't really have done something that I wasn't really supposed to do. I'm thinking.. You may feel that way, but I'm not. Cos' at least I know that what I'm doing is good to me, I feel so right to do it. Ya, I know I could have done other things instead of, like example, diving.. I find that it's a piece of something that belongs to me, it's something that I would do for my entire life and it gives me a peace of my mind, even set me free from the tensions. You may think that it's not necessary, but you are not me, so I guess you might just do the same thing if you were me. In fact, you aren't. So, diving, is something I would live doing it.
Sometimes, I just need someone to be with me. Doing what I'm doing, not really have to talk to me or anything. Just being there, do what they want, be a living object (that's how I call it) that right in my sight. At least it makes me feel a little less alone. Cos' I know that there's someone around..
I don't know what's going wrong with me. I just think a lot about anything, especially in the middle of the silent night. Listening to a bitter song, wondering and writing down what in my big head. It makes me feel better by doing so. Sometimes, I wonder that is it a good thing or bad thing? Considering doing it makes me feel better, so, I think it's a good thing.. Cos' I won't mess up my life with nonsenses.. And I don't want to .
For some reasons, I want to have a few days getaway to the beach. It doesn't really matter if I'm going alone. I just want to go to beach, step on the sands, feel the winds, listen to the sound of waves hitting on the beach, have some drinks, enjoy the peace.. I know these make me feel better, but I just hardly materialize it when I'm so eager to do it in no time..
I'm like stuck in the middle of nowhere. Despite of doing what I'm supposed to do, I don't really enjoy doing it. It's something that I have to do, I have to complete.. and I'm doing it. Just that it can't give me what I really wanted. How long does it take me to where I want to be? I'm waiting, I'm taking actions.. still I don't get to see and have what I really wanted..
Come walk with me.. sing with me.. dance a little with me.. booze with me.. dive with me.. sit beside me.. Come be with me. I just need a right person to be with, not really have to be a partner, just a friend would do.. How long does it last? The feeling of needing someone.. It's been such hell to me, at some points, for sometimes.. But right now, all I can do is just close my eyes.. dream about what I couldn't be able to do.. Drifting around in dreams, and wish that the dreams.. would be granted soon.. real soon..
Written by,
Ryan Ng
When people told me that I shouldn't really have done something that I wasn't really supposed to do. I'm thinking.. You may feel that way, but I'm not. Cos' at least I know that what I'm doing is good to me, I feel so right to do it. Ya, I know I could have done other things instead of, like example, diving.. I find that it's a piece of something that belongs to me, it's something that I would do for my entire life and it gives me a peace of my mind, even set me free from the tensions. You may think that it's not necessary, but you are not me, so I guess you might just do the same thing if you were me. In fact, you aren't. So, diving, is something I would live doing it.
Sometimes, I just need someone to be with me. Doing what I'm doing, not really have to talk to me or anything. Just being there, do what they want, be a living object (that's how I call it) that right in my sight. At least it makes me feel a little less alone. Cos' I know that there's someone around..
I don't know what's going wrong with me. I just think a lot about anything, especially in the middle of the silent night. Listening to a bitter song, wondering and writing down what in my big head. It makes me feel better by doing so. Sometimes, I wonder that is it a good thing or bad thing? Considering doing it makes me feel better, so, I think it's a good thing.. Cos' I won't mess up my life with nonsenses.. And I don't want to .
For some reasons, I want to have a few days getaway to the beach. It doesn't really matter if I'm going alone. I just want to go to beach, step on the sands, feel the winds, listen to the sound of waves hitting on the beach, have some drinks, enjoy the peace.. I know these make me feel better, but I just hardly materialize it when I'm so eager to do it in no time..
I'm like stuck in the middle of nowhere. Despite of doing what I'm supposed to do, I don't really enjoy doing it. It's something that I have to do, I have to complete.. and I'm doing it. Just that it can't give me what I really wanted. How long does it take me to where I want to be? I'm waiting, I'm taking actions.. still I don't get to see and have what I really wanted..
Come walk with me.. sing with me.. dance a little with me.. booze with me.. dive with me.. sit beside me.. Come be with me. I just need a right person to be with, not really have to be a partner, just a friend would do.. How long does it last? The feeling of needing someone.. It's been such hell to me, at some points, for sometimes.. But right now, all I can do is just close my eyes.. dream about what I couldn't be able to do.. Drifting around in dreams, and wish that the dreams.. would be granted soon.. real soon..
Written by,
Ryan Ng
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
